bit by bit i turn myself into swamp, it's a mess but suprisingly sttractive to a new player. i send my prayer and pray he can hear me and reach out a helping hand.
cannot return into that situation again, i took a long time and hard work to drag myself out of it, it just cannot happen again, otherwise i will lose the me i like so much and turining into someone i hate even more.
admite it, you can never cheat your own feelings. may be he's perfect just not your perfection. stop whatever you are doing and listening the voice inside you, hopefully, we will find the answer there.
if you live in a dream and wanna be happy forever, then don't wake up; if you wanna see the truth and think you can take it, wake up and see the real world and meet the real you. you may not like her, but you will love her.
stop right where you are and think. leave the mess behind you, if you can't choose, lose the string and don't choose. it's your life don't let anyone else live it for you.
and in the end, girl, don't let the fear of loseing the game stop you from playing. get a good night sleep, and tomorrow is a new day!
to myself
01/06/2008
1:37