Last Saturday I went to Metropolitan museum of art in New York City. Just by chance I saw this Chinese couplet and I was immediately taken by it. I took a picture of the characters and started to really digest and try to decode what it means.

It describes perfectly what I was seeking day to day, just some inner peacefulness with myself. No matter what happens I try to keep myself even-heeled.

Looking at my surrounding, my coworkers, my friends, they are all consumed with whatever troubles or burdens they have to face. How people are dealing with their problem says a lot about their character. Ever since I started working at this new company, all I hear from my coworkers are whining and complaining, one thing after another. Sometimes I just want to say to them, "shut the xx up, stop this already and be happy." In my twisted logic, I think that they are complaining about everything is their way of getting some frustration out, at the same time they can start appreciate more of what they have.

Inner peace with yourself is the hardest to obtain, because people are always revolve around their desire. They want a better job, they want more money, or they want more freedom. I can not escape from my desire either. However I have figured out what I want is to be happy. Be happy of what you are, be happy with what you have. It's incredibly simple to feel inner peace if you just stop for a few seconds from all the pursuit and desire, and just ask yourself what makes you happy? Maybe just stop and take a deep breath, and let all the worry and anxiety flow away out to the sea, just start appreciate all the little nice things we have in our lives. Like a friendly hello from a stranger, a hearty hug from a friend, or a simple random act of kindness to a homeless person.

I have probably figured it out, the eternal question in my mind is what is my special gift that nobody shares. I think I have a lot of talents but I have not find what I truely was meant to do, maybe it's because I did a lot of things effortlessly. My answer is there is no need to over think it, just do my best and time will tell if I have make the right decision. Maybe I'm meant to be someone signficant, maybe I'm just another ordinary Joe. Who knows. It doesn't matter, as long as I think I'm trying my best and I'm happy with whatever end result it might be.